I am mentally preparing myself for torture of watching a request. I would lie, if I said that I'm not scared. But I am not scared of the cannibalism part. I am a little bit worried about being unnecessarily strict with the series. I am a little bit worried about the backlash over watching such a story. I feel like I really shouldn't let the teacher in me watch it in order to enjoy it properly. But then again I am entering it blind and I don't know what to expect, so I shouldn't be expecting anything, right?
I am not sure how seriously taken
is it going to be. I am not sure why people started to love the series. I am
not sure I'm going to be satisfied with the BL part. I shouldn't expect
anything less because of who asked me to watch it, right? So, however strange
it might sound, I should probably say that I am conscious about watching such a
series. For it being BL. For it being a creation based on such a topic. For it
being like 10 years old and still being loved? Let's hope for the best and
let's expect the worst (and since I was asked to do the reaction video for it,
I really don't expect the worst, but there still might be parts I am not going
to be overly happy with or I'm not going to be satisfied with or I'm not going
to be super excited about, but it might happen right? It is cool as well,
right? – No, it isn’t and for such a blasphemy the creator in me would kill me
- for these words or for these thoughts. It's something about the purity of the
craft, I guess, but you can't ask me about the specifics since I don't know
anything at all, and I do not understand it.).
And I still feel the pressure
underneath to point out that I am atrociously biased. And for several reasons
not in a good way.
I don't like it. I don't like the colour.
I am worried about where we are going to take this theme. And specifically, I
don't like the THOUGHT of watching something with Mads Mikkelsen, because the
fiasco with Harry Potter AKA Fantastic Beasts and Johnny Depp that should have
never happened. Though otherwise we all love, and respect Mads Mikkelsen.
And it is all and of itself problematic, because
- do I really want to watch something because of this actor? No. I
want to watch something that I'm going to like. I do not want to watch
something based on the reputation of the main lead, which is, as I stand now in
front of the task of watching this series, only its disadvantages.
Fingers cross and let's be brave because I am not
going to start watching it unless I'm 100% sure that everything that I mentioned
is not going to stand in my way of understanding and seeing what the story is all
about.
And what about you? Have you ever stood in front of the same dilemma I am
now trying to solve before watching an AV?
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